your lovely face
remains quiet, says your peace
your ugly honest face
the most beautiful thing ive ever seen
the last empty silence
the harmony of your wisp cheek
the last thought i will think
reclined against the apartment tree
the anxieties of my past life
given up by 23
to a girl doomed to dream
just like me
crying monotone
the man with the pale yellow shirt standing in the median was me for a moment
me was nobody
for a moment
ambiguous grey bring no rain
silver breeze will you sift away?
beneath my inside to defrost under disguised sunlight
outside i confusion her message to stop and rest
i don’t understand
“There is nothing to understand.”
what is nothing
“Nothing is everything.”
so i have to understand everything
“You have to understand two things: 1. Yourself 2. The fact that you are nothing”
ok — .. — .
nature never stops trying hard
light can't help illuminating
light isn't inherently good
because of light we can see forests burn and penguins die
because of light there was an eclipse
because of light i have to wear glasses
what light manages to find this room
deserves to shine on my wrought spun dreams
i woke up in that mood again
for the 278th time this year
try to remember forgetting the origin of lost memory the end of the beginning white to grey black to gray
life is gray
settle for trying a little harder, everyday
no
that won’t work forever...
im not addicted i just like the smell
of burning herbs transience,
moonflower —
my soft anesthesia blade
wallow wallow
you said
less than words
a greater language
wrapped me in ambiguous details
oooh
let me focus in
im hallucinating
ahhh
inside over around under — out ——
(flesh)
OW
im sorry...
im sorry
i dont what to say other than im sorry
