after writing this i will lay face down in my pillow and hold my breath, then get up and open the window and make coffee and forget about suffocation for a few hours

my cellphone buzzed
     one-arm hug
i excitedly rolled over in bed
     one arm holding the door open
but it was the associated press
the associated press notification noise you thought was startling and funny that one time
     air coming in
you withheld your tumblr likes from me that one time
     cold air

some twenty-year-olds are unforgivable
for three to five days
then things become different on the weekend
many people become less people
in social groups

nine people seated at a circular dinner table
add up to one person

one person alone under comforter at 2:10 pm on sunday
adds up to at least nine people