i am upset
if i write the above line with more detail
you may better understand the nuance of my emotion
but my emotion lacks nuance
i feel upsetness as a big cloud
i lost the water droplets for the cloud
you still notice the water droplets around me
i will try to describe the kinds of water droplets surrounding people
...
i'm going to go eat at the dining hall. it's raining out. i will bring a poncho but not put it on.
i will use moments that have not arrived yet to write, play, sing, draw, paint, focus on my breath, listen to music, read, eat, focus on muscle pain, drink warm beverages, cry, smile and laugh, read nutrition labels, scream, harmonize, watch films, spend time with family, think about nothing, do nothing, sleep all day, feel anxious, feel calm, feel okay, dance, steal, nervously twitch scroll social media apps see sunrise after sleepless night of yearning
